|You are the light!||
|You are the light!||
Some weeks ago I had an amazing experience that sort of “flipped the coin” for me, I have changed forever and cannot look at life the way that I did before.
But before it happened I made a conscious choice that I am going to ENJOY my life, I am going to ENJOY every day and make the most of it as it comes and offers me a gift of transformation. I decided that I am going to make my life interesting and play with it and have fun as it is the life that I am living NOW, so why not? Since that inner decision my life has never been the same, every single day is magical and full of learnings, realizations and change with every breath.
Before the experience there was a definite build up, things just started to fall into place and I was on a happy ride ha ha, I met new amazing people that just lifted me more and opened my heart to love and magic of this moment.
I have always been a sensitive being, this is why I do what I do, but not just as I really like the discovering journey of those whom I assist and my own transformation and growth along the way.
I felt that something has happened the day when I had no thoughts, I was just feeling and sensing everything, I was given guidance and impulses to “act out” which then lead me to more amazing experiences or people, it was/is a total miracle to me what life truly is.
“Flipping of a coin” happened on a day that I was doing my casual weekly clean when suddenly I realized that I have become a neutral observer now. I became aware of the Cosmic Self that is everywhere and is as big as the universe and the small self – ego which walks on earth at the same time and my awareness shifted from the small self to the Cosmic One! I felt that I am the Universe and The Universe is me, we are all one and I am much, much more than the mind will ever be able to comprehend. I lost all desire or need to do anything, even healing did not make sense anymore, I could not feel any pain – be it physical, mental or spiritual, I could not feel any hunger or cold either, I just felt deep peace and love, I am love and everything is perfect for every human being on earth. I was aware that I am traveling around the universe as multiple beings, that I am exploring other realities, that I am creating worlds, that I am learning and constantly evolving. After this I started to see future events, visions or what might happen as there is only now and the present, also sensing people thoughts, emotions, everything. I had left only 2% of my awareness on the earth self and the rest was on the Cosmic one, it was as if I have come home. I was in this state for some days until it integrated and became more stable, I needed a lot of grounding, but I knew who I am and so it was easier to come back, but it has changed me forever. Since that day, I have been aware of my Cosmic Self and keeping some of the focus on my small self as I know that I have now become a neutral observer.
I see the world now in such a different way… I saw my fears, I saw how I am not listening to my heart, but listening to other people and living out their expectations that they have of me…and so my heart spoke and I am listening now, it is such a scary feeling to trust in myself, to listen with an open heart, to hear what it has to say and it speaks! Ouh yes! But it speaks so softly and gently that you might perhaps not hear it as the mind jumps in and tells all the things you or other people tell you that you are.
It is a practice for sure, day by day, step by step, but if you trust you shall be rewarded in unimaginable ways that will leave you speechless and in awe and will change you forever…and so it is.
A book written by Marie Kondo is the title of this blog and I read this book in one day (I love books!) and as I was reading it I was surprised how much she was speaking about spiritual practice and being sensitive to energies and listening to yourself. She is one wise woman!
I have always loved cleaning and I really like to see something dirty becoming clean and shiny (yes, I wrote that :D). I even liked to clean my friends houses when I was younger and I still do very much enjoy cleaning, I find it very meditative and purifying process.
As you clean your "stuff" many things come up and I am not just talking here about inner work, I mean the outer "stuff", things that we keep in our house, in our living space.
The book is amazing and it really spoke to me and I did some clearing in my space. What the basics of this book is to ask yourself if, for example, a piece of clothing or a book or an object brings you joy. You just ask this question when holding each thing you own (okay, you would probably not hold up a bed or a closet, but you get the idea). Easy right? But how many of us have actually asked this question when buying things? Sometimes we just go for the impulse SALE or discounts, buy 1 and get another one for free! Yeah, good marketing tricks and brainwashing!
As I was going through my own "stuff" I noticed that I kept some things that I really did not like or I felt that I had to keep them because of obligation or that I did not deserve something better and more beautiful and it was really, really difficult to let some things go, but I did it! Yay!
What was very interesting is what happened next, I started to also let go of habits or thoughts that I have hold onto even though I knew they are not good for me, this was clearly a deeper cleaning happening here. From time to time I would get a sense that I need to clear my wardrobe, it is a nudge from my guides. If I do not listen it comes again and again and again until I do it and something gets transformed.
Marie herself is so charming and cute! I definitely recommend to read her book and I hope that by doing so you transform your life and let go of all the extra baggage that does not serve its purpose anymore.
May magic cleaning happens!
Phew I have not written for a while, but here goes!
Have you seen a turtle? If not, google! And have a good look at it!
Very cute creatures, aren’t they?
Now, what is on the back of a turtle?
A shell...well his house (technically) is always on its back and guess what? So is yours!
Wherever you go, you bring yourself to that place...you cannot escape your self.
You might think a new job, new relationship, new place, new “toys”, new distractions, new this, new that will make things better...yeah, they will, but for a while, it is a quick fix so that you do not have to go deeper and see what is there, but it will not last as you take yourself wherever you go...no escape! Universe has some funny sense of humour! Here you go around searching and all you need is always with you, right here, now! Hilarious!
Sooner or later things will “pop up” to draw your attention and then you might find yourself questioning yourself why is this happening to me? Nothing has changed…here we go again and the story goes on with the dialogues we have with ourselves to…to…to…find excuses, but no solutions!
Different situations, people, places, yet it is the same core energy that is creating those external or internal turmoils in the first place. Hmm, what an interesting game life is.
To keep in mind and heart that you cannot escape yourself is pretty freeing and scary! Omg! I am stuck with this gal? Yikes!
I keep this up my sleeve as a reminder when I am wanting to “escape” some difficult situations, conflicts or relationships (I wouldn’t say it works all the time though! Ha! Self-acceptance comes in handy here! Oregato!).
I can’t escape! Ouh well, what do I do then?
Practice! Practice! Practice!
Awareness and mindfulness in ones actions, thoughts and words.
Phew that is difficult, not sure I want to do that…I am tired…no more…haven’t I done enough already?! Where are my “gifts”? Why is everyone else having it easy and slacking off while I am working my…eemmm off? It is not fair! Can I get a short cut please? I will be very, very good, I promise…just this once…here goes again that tricky fox mind! Finding excuses! So sneaky!
So what to do?
Practice…practice makes perfect practice…
Stop now and take a deep breath, feel how air flows into your nostrils and fills up your whole body, giving life and oxygen and then breathe out…slowly…
Breath by breath, that is all that is needed.
I invite you to practice awareness in your daily life and when those difficult moments come keep reminding yourself that you are more…and you cannot escape yourself no matter how hard you try…so don’t…keep practicing.
Wow, it has been a while since I wrote a blog post, but here it is!
This message came to me one day when I very strongly felt presence of Babaji. His energy was that of a child - innocent and kind, very playful too! He was/is a spiritual master that I have very close connection to. What I write below is our combined message and what I put into practice in my daily life. Enjoy!
Everything is energy. Everything is energy. Everything is energy. Do you understand?
There is only Now. Time does not exist. The movement of thought creates time. Do you understand?
You are a multidimensional being. Everything that you need is already here and available Now. You are complete. Do you understand?
Past and future exist only in your thoughts, in your mind. Time is like a circle and you are in the centre of it. You are the reference point. Do you understand? Time is not linear, it exists in all directions. Imagination is another type of time. Do you understand?
What is real?
Your practice with yourself. Your relationship to yourself, with the light within. Body, emotions, thoughts…it all perishes and changes, but what is left? What is real? What are you attached to?
You are here to learn. Life is full of obstacles, they are part of your journey. Do you understand?
If there is a challenge in your life, celebrate! Why? Because it is energy that comes and says: "Hi! I am here! I want to be free Now! Please release me!" How does this happen? This energy creates in your space situations that will pull out of you some sort of reaction. It wants you to listen, see, notice, it is there shouting: "LOOK, I AM HERE! AAAAAA. LOOK WHAT I CAN DO!" And what do you do? Do you react? Do you listen? Everything is energy. Do you understand?
How to free this energy?
Simple! Come back to your body. Become aware of your breath. See with your inner eye your body and feel where there is tension and relax. Let the energy flow...relax, breath, sing the mantra and clear your energy field that is around you. You are creating a space of awareness around this energy that allows for it to be free. Everything is energy. Do you understand?
Isn't this exciting and interesting?!!
Every day is a gift that you can take and use to become what you truly want to be. Only you can do this. No one else. This is your journey, your life, your choice.
Laugh about yourself when you realize that you are trapped in the illusion, maya, in the wheel of karma.
Laugh about how funny you were when you reacted and how you played this role so real that you forgot that you are just an actor. Isn't that funny?
Do not blame, judge or pity yourself nor others. It is only a mind game that comes and goes, comes and goes. Do you understand?
Observe! Be vigilant! Your task is to observe and understand through yourself how the mind works, how karma, illusion and the law of action and reaction works. They are the laws of nature! Observe.
Every day that you say to yourself: "I cannot do this anymore. I do not have strength today. I don't care! That's it! Enough!" you move away another day from your goal, your heart. Do not even start to blame or pity yourself that it was so, but just do! Remember! Return to your body, become aware, breathe, relax…
As soon as the mind starts to play it's games, laugh and observe it. You are like the eyes that sees everything even then when you react, you silently observe, learn. Everything is energy. Do you understand?
And then…every day is like a miracle, an adventure! In the morning upon waking you have this sense of excitement because there is another day that will bring many opportunities for you to free that which does not allow for you to be a pure expression of light, your potential!
Years ago I was very concerned about how do I look, what am I wearing, how much do the clothes cost that I am wearing as if adding value to my self, who are my parents, friends and what do other people think about me…wow! Those were times! Now looking back it seems so funny because I was so insecure about myself that I had to hide behind all these ideas, images and illusions so that I can be someone that is perfect in other peoples eyes (at least on the outside!) To maintain this illusion inside and outside of myself took away from me a lot of energy and trust in myself. I will share with you now something that happened to me once that I have never shared with anyone before.
So I was going on a date in my hight heels and short skirts in a city named Cēsis that is located in Latvia (a very beautiful city as of matter of fact!). I do not remember all the details about the date but it was getting late and I had to head back home. I though to take a short cut through the woods and cross train tracks as time was getting very tight and I had to catch my bus!
As I was walking my heels made such a loud noise! Klick, clack, klick, clack! I was thinking after a while that it is better to wear comfortable shoes. Anyway I was moving forward and I was checking the surroundings and I was thinking that I am getting lost now, but I walked forward…there is no-one around, just me, I walk and I see that coming towards me is a man that was slightly swaying from the right side to the left side, holding in his hand a white plastic bag and as soon as he saw me he just stopped dead in his tracks! And at that moment my mind was thinking okay, here you are barely dressed, with high heels, pretty face, white curls…soon I was already imagining a scenario that I will be one of those young girls that have been found dead the next day on one of the news channels :D Phew, mind has some awesome imagination that is based mostly on the worst possible scenarios :D
I could not run away so I advanced forward. When I was getting closer to the man that was clearly heavily drunk I thought that I have to do something to release this tension that was in the air and so I…stopped and spoke to the man! I said Hello! and asked if the direction that I was heading was the right one to get to the nearest railway station? The man was stunned for a moment and he looked at me and said yes, you are on the right track and added that I must never ever speak to strangers and especially not with those that are drunk! He smiled at me warmly and I continued my walk with ease.
What is the lesson behind this story that I am sharing with you?
Do not wear high heels when going on a date!
What I actually want to say is that we each need to be ourselves, that which is truly real and unchangeable, that will not perish as situations or people change around us and that is your attitude towards life and how you greet the various challenges that life throws at you, how creative and innovative you are with dealing with day to day situations.
I hope this story is helpful and inspiring for you to be the change that you want to see in the world.
Wow, an amazing week and it is all about gratitude! Yes!
I have been so grateful for everything that has happened this week. My friend, James, was so creative and innovative with helping me with my healing work to reach out to people that I am just in awe for him. So amazing! Thank you!
I felt so grateful that so many people reached out to me and trusted me their healing journey. It is always so exciting and interesting for me to see such variety of people and their stories coming together.
All the healing that I offer is free and based on donations because I like to give to people the option of free choice. Healing is my heart, healing is my home that I return to and reside in. I understand suffering and difficulties in life when you think that no one can help you because you are imperfect striving to be perfect or be a picture that is approved by society, work, friends, family…it seems everyone is trying to fit in (including me at times!) and forget to be themselves. It is okay to be imperfect! Really! Everyone is and that is the beauty of being a human being.
I thank you from my heart for reading these words and maybe trusting me more to jump on a healing journey with me and if so I look forward in working with you soon!