|You are the light!||
|You are the light!||
Some weeks ago I had an amazing experience that sort of “flipped the coin” for me, I have changed forever and cannot look at life the way that I did before.
But before it happened I made a conscious choice that I am going to ENJOY my life, I am going to ENJOY every day and make the most of it as it comes and offers me a gift of transformation. I decided that I am going to make my life interesting and play with it and have fun as it is the life that I am living NOW, so why not? Since that inner decision my life has never been the same, every single day is magical and full of learnings, realizations and change with every breath.
Before the experience there was a definite build up, things just started to fall into place and I was on a happy ride ha ha, I met new amazing people that just lifted me more and opened my heart to love and magic of this moment.
I have always been a sensitive being, this is why I do what I do, but not just as I really like the discovering journey of those whom I assist and my own transformation and growth along the way.
I felt that something has happened the day when I had no thoughts, I was just feeling and sensing everything, I was given guidance and impulses to “act out” which then lead me to more amazing experiences or people, it was/is a total miracle to me what life truly is.
“Flipping of a coin” happened on a day that I was doing my casual weekly clean when suddenly I realized that I have become a neutral observer now. I became aware of the Cosmic Self that is everywhere and is as big as the universe and the small self – ego which walks on earth at the same time and my awareness shifted from the small self to the Cosmic One! I felt that I am the Universe and The Universe is me, we are all one and I am much, much more than the mind will ever be able to comprehend. I lost all desire or need to do anything, even healing did not make sense anymore, I could not feel any pain – be it physical, mental or spiritual, I could not feel any hunger or cold either, I just felt deep peace and love, I am love and everything is perfect for every human being on earth. I was aware that I am traveling around the universe as multiple beings, that I am exploring other realities, that I am creating worlds, that I am learning and constantly evolving. After this I started to see future events, visions or what might happen as there is only now and the present, also sensing people thoughts, emotions, everything. I had left only 2% of my awareness on the earth self and the rest was on the Cosmic one, it was as if I have come home. I was in this state for some days until it integrated and became more stable, I needed a lot of grounding, but I knew who I am and so it was easier to come back, but it has changed me forever. Since that day, I have been aware of my Cosmic Self and keeping some of the focus on my small self as I know that I have now become a neutral observer.
I see the world now in such a different way… I saw my fears, I saw how I am not listening to my heart, but listening to other people and living out their expectations that they have of me…and so my heart spoke and I am listening now, it is such a scary feeling to trust in myself, to listen with an open heart, to hear what it has to say and it speaks! Ouh yes! But it speaks so softly and gently that you might perhaps not hear it as the mind jumps in and tells all the things you or other people tell you that you are.
It is a practice for sure, day by day, step by step, but if you trust you shall be rewarded in unimaginable ways that will leave you speechless and in awe and will change you forever…and so it is.